"IF" by: Rudyard Kipling...

I really enjoyed this poem. It caused me to think a great deal about some of the ideas that it creates. "If you can dream - and not make dreams your master"... "If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim"...
         When I dream I don't want it to be just another dream. I don't want to live my life in a dream, I want to live the dream. Make it reality. Take chances. Be what I want to be and not what others want of me. When I think I don't want it to be just a thought. When I think I will think big. Go big or go home right? ... I don't want to live in constant thought, granted thinking is a good step, but I want to put those thoughts into actions. I want to live them. My thoughts and my dreams are connected. My thoughts correlate one with my dreams and my dreams with my thoughts... a mystical bond in which if accomplish one, I just about accomplish the other.
        "And lose, and start at your beginnings"... "And never breath a word about your loss;" ... When I lose, which often I will, will I cause that it follow me like a shadow? Or will I let it go, let it fester and pop, then heal and move on in just a short moment after? The loss will be painful of course whether it's an actual loss in a sport or a loved one passes away or a loss of confidence, whatever it may be; will I let it control me? I don't want to live my dreams with regret of a loss, a hole in the heart. I want to live life with no regrets and I will be stronger than before when I overcome my trials...

"And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!"

(school) Complaints...

I'm tired of getting up in the morning at 6:45
............. going to my english class
............. and listening to the student teacher ramble
I'm tired of my math teacher
............ always complaining
............ and making us feel guilty by saying "I must really suck as a teacher if you don't know this"
(wow get real) pisses me off.
I'm tired of the everyday motion that I go through
I'm tired of taking test after test after test
I'm tired of homework
............. of all the drama
............. of all the lame excuses
............. of being tired
I'm tired of talking
I'm tired of acting like I care
I'm tired of fixing other peoples problems
I'm tired of cheerleaders.... I mean really.... so annoying!
--cute, but annoying
I'm tired of finding time for homework, sports, church, and friends
--because really we all know what comes last and that's homework
I'm tired of school in general
but I'm not ready for it to be over
--that means it's time to go on a mission and to college and a family... yeah
--sounds scary and somewhat terrible
I'm tired of rambling on about my complaints... there's a lot I know
I'm just tired

What is love...?

Love; a never ending wave of emotional care expressed through affection and kindness.

                  Love is frustration
                  Love is constant worrying
                  Love is positive support
                  Love is long days and long nights
                  Let's be real, Love is awesome.
and            it can last for eternity.   

I'm on a mission...

I'm on a mission to start a mission
I"m on a mission to find life's mission...
wait so I'm on a mission?
That's right! I'm on a mission to find life on mars.
Maybe I'll get lucky and find a martian named...
I'm on a mission to find a job.
I'm on a mission to keep that job.
I'm on a mission to be successful.
Why's it so hard to find something worth while?
I'm on a mission to stay awake during math.
Really though, right now it's terrible.
I'm on a mission to serve a full time mission.
I'm on a mission to find a wife after that mission.
I'm on a mission to support that wife and a family after that mission and college which let's be honest is a mission in itself.
I'm on a mission to live life to it's fullest.
I'm on a mission to live life to it's fullest, but really, die before I have pains and aches from age.
I'm on a mission to ...
Let's not get ahead of ourselves here... first things first...
I'm on a mission to finish this year and graduate!
I'm on a mission to grow up slow...
I'm on a mission to take things as they come right now, and not worry about the future.
I'm on a mission to finish life's mission...